Winds of Change

Great song and as far as the second verse goes, it sort of applies...

It's been a while as my 3 followers will see from my last post, so I figured at least an update was long overdue.

I have gotten more things for my apartment and still discovering whatever my "style" is. I enjoy the space and the freedom, but still enjoy to "come home". My Mom still refers to it as "that apartment" and I am corrected sometimes if I call it "home". I try to be sensitive to it, but I also think it's funny.

So, for those who keep up with me on facebook, I have a new job!!

I really like it and keep waiting for something bad to happen. It's just too good. No one is monitoring me, no one hassels me, I keep up with my time, and I do everything at my own pace. I could get used to this, if I would stop waiting for the "other shoe to fall" or whatever.

I actually have an office!! I often close the door and listen to music, which is good and bad. I think I forget sometimes that I am in an office and that the wall are paper thin. So far I have only busted myself humming. However, the other day people cleared out early and I totally could have been jamming out! Fridays are like a ghost town and the offices on either side of me are usually empty. So, my "night owl" status and being up too late, like tonight are not great when it's that quiet. I will just have to use one of my "what to do when caught sleeping at work" excuses, like...when found asleep in your office and you manage to rouse yourself from sleep when someone enters the room simply open your eyes and say "amen".

October is usually a pretty busy month for me, a lot of birthdays, including my own. I have had something going on every weekend this month I believe. I went to the state fair for the first time...I think I would appreciate more the novelty of a small town fair. It was crowded and I got blisters. I went to a family reunion last weekend...I made it a majority of one of the days before I got "well, you still depriving a young man of your companionship?" I guess I was surprised no one pressed the issue sooner and I guess I should be grateful they said "young man", unless they expect me to marry younger. I guess with my last birthday I am approaching the time of my life that that will be a constant "concern" on the part of those around me. I also managed to be the only girl at the reunion watching the Ranger game (the 2nd game of the series), didn't "single" myself out there!

This weekend I am doing something I thought I would not do...I'm going to my 10 year high school reunion. I fear/dread the following:

-Finding it lame and wanting to leave soon after arrival
-Finding myself standing alone
-Finding myself "drawing a blank" when someone greets me (especially if it's a big greeting, like opening to a hug upon approach)
-Having a person come up to me and say "you made high school terrible for me"-(wasn't there someone for everyone?)
-Having a person say "you never talked to me in high school"-(uh it's called shyness and I have a filter!)
-Having a person say "I had a huge crush on you in high school" (boy or girl) and maybe following it with "you were really pretty then" or something (should I be flattered?)
-Getting rained on...it is going to be outside (especially if I wear my hair straight)
-Getting stuck at the "singles" table ( I am the singles table in my life)
-Getting the "that's okay...it'll happen" to my response of "no" to the "are you married?"; "are you seeing anyone?"; or "do you have any children?"questions (maybe I should just say I am converting to Catholicism and then becoming a nun or buy a cabin in the woods and take up a trade)

Why am I going again??