Eye Don't Think So!!

Okay, so I went to the eye doctor today for my year check-up since I had LASIK last year. So, he is telling me good things like 20/15 and telling me what my vision was before LASIK...then BOOM he drops his bomb. He starts talking about "slight" nearsightedness! What?! Exactly how far am I supposed to be seeing?! I mean considering I don't have to put on contacts or glasses just to put on make-up or something as trivial as using the bathroom, I think that's pretty good! I would literally have to almost climb into the pack and play with my nephew just to check on him when he was sleeping! I could see his face when he told me this, unlike before LASIK without glasses or contacts he would have been a blur and I would have been scrunching my face in a so attractive way just to make it out! I enjoy opening my eyes and being able to see in the morning! Rain on my parade? No sir! He wrote me a prescription as an option...uh that's why I got LASIK, don't want to wear glasses! I had 18 years of glasses and/or contacts! That was a long time for me, I still think I am forgetting something when I get ready for bed or pack to go somewhere. Anyway, so as long as I can see to drive and I can in fact read the road signs for exits off the highway even before I get lost, I think I will be okay. I am working on the getting lost thing, I got a navigator I call Doloris (the direction giver) on my phone, so see I am doing just great!

For those of you with glasses or contacts, not knocking them, I know your pain and I apparently lost my tolerance for it and saw an opportunity. If it makes you feel better I still had like 3 boxes of contacts and I had spent a lot on my last pair of glasses when I got LASIK. I also had some really unattractive pairs of glasses over the years, painful memories...captured forever in photos and film. So, you perfect vision people...have a heart...love your vision challenged family and friends and tell them..."I wish I could look that good in glasses" or some other vision related compliment and mean it! It really is nice to hear!

To Sing or Not to Sing

So I have been asked to sing at my parent's church this Sunday. I am super nervous. Don't get me wrong I love to sing, but I would prefer for people to be either in another room or closing their eyes. I have been singing in front of people for a long time, but it never gets any easier. Take my first time to sing in front of people at church.

So I am about 6 years old maybe and someone, still don't know who decides to have the brilliant idea for me to sing "Away in a Manger". This is all the verses and of course by myself. Well, things are progressing, verse 1, check, verse 2, check, verse 3...almost done...(blurt) "to live with Thee there" and I run off stage crying. Nice huh? Well I run to my Mom unaware of the applause only wanting the comfort of my Mom and she is...laughing. She tells me to this day that she was so overwhelmed with emotion and being so proud of me she was laughing and crying; not at me. Still traumatic for me.

So, you can see how I associate performing in front of people with fear, at least I hope you see it too. Also, there is the constant knowing that if I look in the general direction of my Dad, he will in fact be crying, so I have taken to staring at the wall. Here's hoping there is not a repeat of the "Away in a Manger" debacle.