So I have been asked to sing at my parent's church this Sunday. I am super nervous. Don't get me wrong I love to sing, but I would prefer for people to be either in another room or closing their eyes. I have been singing in front of people for a long time, but it never gets any easier. Take my first time to sing in front of people at church.
So I am about 6 years old maybe and someone, still don't know who decides to have the brilliant idea for me to sing "Away in a Manger". This is all the verses and of course by myself. Well, things are progressing, verse 1, check, verse 2, check, verse 3...almost done...(blurt) "to live with Thee there" and I run off stage crying. Nice huh? Well I run to my Mom unaware of the applause only wanting the comfort of my Mom and she is...laughing. She tells me to this day that she was so overwhelmed with emotion and being so proud of me she was laughing and crying; not at me. Still traumatic for me.
So, you can see how I associate performing in front of people with fear, at least I hope you see it too. Also, there is the constant knowing that if I look in the general direction of my Dad, he will in fact be crying, so I have taken to staring at the wall. Here's hoping there is not a repeat of the "Away in a Manger" debacle.
You have sang plenty of times since then, without running off of the stage crying, I might add. You will do beautifully, quit overthinking it silly girl!
ReplyDeleteJamye you sing like an angel. You can some sing to me while I clean anytime! I won't stare and you can be in a different room! :) If you need to practice or if you just feel like singing feel free to come sing to me!
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